in portland again for one night. bored outta my mind.

missing my west seattle pals.

excited for vegas, and stoked to see robby and company

dudes. frightened rabbit was goooood

going to shows alone is strangely amusing. newcastle on tap.

hummus, pita, ipa. good night.

at mcmenamins again for dinner. too much work. anybody in pdx wanna hangout this week?

like havi, i'm a sucker for all things pumpkin flavored.

A Damn Movie Podcast is seriously my new favorite podcast. Good work dudes.

kexp song of the day podcast is so great. i'm really liking most of these bands i've never even slightly heard of.

good lord... when you have a dog, you realize dog hair gets EVERYWHERE!

maaan. this week has been crazy. hurry hurry work work hurry hurry. ruuuuushed

missing bonnie and pj. i need a nap. and beer.

stupid blackping app

Type your ping here ...apparently almost all art in portland seems to be at least somewhat inspired by daniel johnston cassette covers. neat

hospitals are rediculous! congratulations american medical system, you win. i'm broke.

uhhhh computer fail day.

sooo apparently we missed a hospital bill from my son's birth and now we owe over 900 more. we have already paid over 2000. gah!

Type your ping here ...headache day

I just went to the video store, and i got kind of depressed. How the hell do some of these movies get made? "Evil bong 2: king bong". ugh

I REALLY like food.

Just watched "Rushmore" for the 11th or 12th time. seriously. I love this movie.

good amount of awesome-tude.

tums and john vanderslice. what sunday afternoons are all about. haha.

any suggestions on what movie to rent tonight? the baby's in bed, bonnie is out. Just me and the dog watching movies.

goodbye little pepper dog. i'll miss you.

gang vocals!

is it just me, or does it seem like basic grammar and fluent communication have become obsolete lately?

suuuuuuuper bored.

thank you jimmy eat world, american steel and rocket from the crypt for a pleasant drive home.

i miss my baby and my sweetie.

at a park in southeast portland watching a crazy amateur fireworks show. sooo good.

too much salsa again. i must love heartburn.

god i miss the impossibles...

hooray for sad sad paycheck day!

wendover is a sad, sad little town.

I'm at fred meyer...er i mean smiths. travvy needs throat lozenges.

vito's in bountiful is soooo good

we're in utah now. call me dudes.

airport wackiness is ensuing.

vacation tomorrow! after today it'll feel soooooo good to turn my phone off.

the 'thorns of life' are real good, son.

me and parker are sharing a big bowl of oatmeal for breakfast. hooray for days off!

your ocean is a drop of water...

such a nice day outside. too bad it will be spent pulling apart processing racks. tonight will be a beer night.

we will be visiting you utah folk on june 9th - 16th. party?

emeril just said, "i'm just gunna let that foam in my pan". that's what she said?

Thought of the day: snowshoes.

sorry...ridiculous. me spell good.

Can you even classify local news as news anymore? this crap is rediculous!

travis is in need of a vay-cay.

wilco will love you baby.

lost was great last night. but now we have to wait till february!

it seems weird that Bonnie and I have been away from utah now for nearly 5 years.

i know i've said it before, but i miss my bonnie and pj

today has not been a good day. i miss bonnie and parker!

probably my favorite episode of lost all year. great stuff!

i have zero monies. someone give me 1 or 2 monies.

lost's penultimate season 5 episode is on tonight. color this guy excited. also very nerdy.

gotta love a squeeky dryer exit unit

we went to the zoo today, and now that we're members, it's free!

why is bread so good?

let's have a day where getting belittled and chewed out are not on the agenda, ok? oh... and some more money would be nice too.

isn't it funny when you get paid, and have to spend it all on bills in the same day? hooray!

i've been on a smoking popes kick lately. their newest album is sooo good. also, american steel's newest album.

such a nice day outside. i think it calls for a barbecue

holy crap lost is so freakin' good. sad about faraday though.

going to fred meyer to pick up a fro-zza.

everything just reminds me of my bad luck. i spent a few hours redownloading work software and files. they were stolen with the laptop

just remembered how good the new transit direction was...

well... we'll see how this goes. onward, forward, into the unknown. these will be some shaky months.

conference call madness! i'll be busy for the next hour or so. fun.

conference call madness! i'll be busy for the next hour or so. fun.

going to the tulip festival. festive.

i'm so tired. closing stores takes a lot out of you. thank god it's the weekend.

it's been a rough week...

does anyone have a real copy (not mp3's) of new transit direction's j. robbins full length? My copy is beat to hell.

my baby is the sweetest thing in the world. he just fell asleep in my arms.

such a beautiful day today. 70, blue skies, cherry blossoms... now all i need is a beer. oh... and a new laptop.

169.00 to fix a window that a bum punched out. all so he could steal an old laptop with no o/s. hurray!

it's wayyy past my bedtime. finishing expense reports and editing photos will make you lose track of time.

FB RT: Brian Tootle This SciFi flick looks pretty decent. Makes me wish for more Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy tho. R.I.P. Douglass Adams http://bit.ly/4el8S. it's got roy from the it crowd!

mmm. white trash gormet. arbeeees. ha!

what the hell is up with all of the snickers ads all of the sudden? it's really confusing. did people forget about snickers?

what lies in the shadow of the statue?

i'm off to beddie bye. goodnight partiers.

shopping at target. funballs.

"i love you man" was hilarious, and my dog thinks he's starving. if you've seen him, you know he's not.

going to see i love you man. me, going to a movie?

my car got broken into and my laptop and usb hard drives got stolen. yay downtown seattle!

coffee in my cup. cheap, not too tasty, but necessary.

bonnie just made some amazing guacamole. the avocado has got to be my new favorite green bulbish vegetable.

is it wednesday night yet? lost?

can someone tell me why car insurance is so expensive?

my parents saw me on tv in brandon's documentary "the up beat". great movie by the way.

am i the only one who is completely sick of the cheesey snarky iphone commercials? or the lit-up apple status symbol?

yo gabba gabba is awesome!

it's friday. anyone want to party with me and the baby? woo!

southern kitchen catfish is dee-lightful.

goodnight moon. hopefully friday will treat me better than thursday. my little baby is the cutest by the way.

headache. headache. grr. eye doctor. shipping. brain hurts.

the smoke monster is osirus?

dude. lost is so good. locke knows something more than ben now.

lets see how many ritz stores i can drive to in a day! hurray!

today is driving day. too much to do!

mac fanboys annoy me so bad.

tearing down a lab today. wanna help?

hope everyone had a great weekend! sun sun sun

its a black bear morning for meee! hurray for hangovers!

sleepy time tea-ravis. thank you

going to bonnie's berthdee party. huzzah!

parker is the sweetest baby in the werld.

the oven is on fire!!! it smells delightful

test

this is another test....

why am i still up? why is futurama so damn good? why ask why.

i need to go to sleep. f'reals..

ascending the hershey highway onramp

so things have been going rather uneventful lately. it's the a calm before the storm. I know that many, many things will be swallowing my stocky self whole very soon. But what do you do? nothing that I know of. I'm a bit dumbstruck and incredibly unmotivated still. I need to go out and take pictures soon. Just getting out and wandering helps me smooth out the wrinkles and return to some semblance of calm, quiet normalcy.

so here are a few lists to help my mind settle, and to help me reminisce.

top ten show's i saw when i lived in slc. (in no specific order)
1. rocket from the crypt - once at dv8, once at brick's.
2. jimmy eat world - basement of dv8, and once upstairs.
3. new transit direction and form of rocket at kilby, FOR's cd release for 'se puede'.
4. slowreader at kilby
5. tilt and one man army and kilby - one of kilby's first shows.
6. discount at raunch records, and at the Moroccan.
7. the anniversary at kilby. fire on the cymbals!
8. the specials and the pilfers at dv8
9. the pietasters and spring heeled jack at dv8
10. the impossibles at kilby

I really will start updating this.

Does depression or anxiety towards the future ever manifest itself as lethargy?
This is the kind of thing that I've been mulling over the past few weeks. With the sad state of the economy and the overall stagnancy of my profession, I end up thinking too much. And when I think too much, I never start. I sit here, I procrastinate. Things that are easy and simple get left undone, and the big things get done half-assed. I know there are things that need to be done, but i just can't physically do them.

I love my family, i love my wife and baby, and things at home are good overall. But I can't help but contemplate how things will be in the next few weeks, the next few months, the next few years. I know there is nothing I can do to change what's already been done, but I can do something about the future. I know I should go take some classes. I know I should do something with my art, with my photography, with my life in general. I have skills, I have the ability to make things happen, but I sit still.

This blog will not be political, nor will it be preachy. But I may throw in pieces and parts of my thoughts on politics and I may seem preachy every now and then. This blog is to serve as motivation. Something to get out of my system, an outlet. A little release to quell the onslaught. a small pressure release valve, to stay the alternate reality of a sobbing breakdown.